wow, what a week it's been. its been a long time since i blogged. my life's upside down since mid Sec 2, maybe its time i finally find the key to unlock my life. People always say ive been living a shadown of myself, and im much capable of better things, maybe they're right, cos at times when i really see myself pushing, i can do dam well. Wonder how ill be when im at my limits. But physically and mentally im not ready, My body's totally over burnt out, and mentally depressed. Im troubled by my relationships with people, school work shooting, and the ugliness of human nature. ok, i really needa sleep more to let my body recover, and my entire injured poor body heal. maybe ill decide not to be anti-social in school finally? like cheston and y'all say, its really actually a choice i made, cos when i reach safra, its goddamn obvious im dam sociable. and yea, maybe i shld just stop flirting about, maybe get serious. idk, bad year to start a rltnship. and anw my parents are so damn against it anw. but im HELL NOT a player. and i love my awesome jrs, we had such a special bond. really. school worl, damn, im getting the hang of GP, i think i just aced my common test. but my chem's getting better, and its time i start finding the key to unlocking my other subs too. TIME. i need time and inspiration. shooting, im not in nats again. wow. 6 years. u know how shitty that feels? seriously, its nt like i dont train hard or anything. i give my best. so anyway, i dont have to train at all till after nats? HOPEFULLY im reserve. still very very unlikely, given its COACH.... but i really hope to end my shooting career on a high with NUSIS? hopefully physio does wonders.PLEASE OH GOD. is it so damn hard to get a wish granted? life has always been unfair to me. time to make a change huh? and yea, i really think im good at being a psycologist. :D time to continue mugging. im so darn unproductive. i needa focus!!!
ciao
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