troubled and sad

for some reason, ive been forced to dig up my unhappy past. a sad one. the key to unlocking my future lies in my past i guess. i am who i am cos of those events. ive tried moving on, and it hasnt succeeded. The Fray-How to save a life is perhaps one song recently ive heard again that resembles me in a way. Im so addicted to I made it by kevin rudolf and jay sean and lil wayne and birdman. wow. i played it for one whole day of mugging. awesomez. dont i just dream about that too?